I can remember the first time I was given an opioid. I was in a great deal of pain from a motor vehicle accident when someone crashed into the rear of my car and pushed me into the car in front of me. It was a rainy day and the roads were slippery. I was on a downward sloped hill when it happened. I never saw it coming. I suffered whiplash and several herniated disc with a cord compression to add to all of that. I had never known that kind of pain before and I just wanted it to go away. This was back in 1988.
I went to the ER and then to my doctor who evaluated my injuries and set out the plan for my treatment going forward. After many scans and other studies, he gave me Soma (a muscle relaxant) and Vicodin (an opioid). The two of these together produce a heroin like high. I felt as though I was floating on a cloud of ecstasy. Although the pain was still there, I didn’t care one bit. All that I cared about was the high. That was when my opioid addiction began and didn’t end until 2007 when I experience a massive accidental overdose and near death experience from a combination of 12 opioids, muscle relaxants and benzodiazepines – ALL given to me by two doctors in ONE medical practice and I took every prescription as directed! I was in the nightmare of addiction from doctors I trusted. Without getting into a song and dance about this, I have to add that I questioned one of the two doctors about how he could help me out of the addiction that tormented me. He simply said, “don’t worry, you’re not addicted”. He then laughed and wrote me all of my prescriptions. This lasted over 7 very long and nightmarish years. I praise God that He freed me on March 22nd of 2007! I had to die before I could live again.
It was my near death that gave birth to the ministry I share with my husband, which is navigating people through an extraordinary and transformational recovery using the Teen Challenge PSNC program, individualized Christian life coaching, Biblical counseling, Bible study, group activities, paying it forward, and worship & praise to our God. So, my message to all of you out there is to recognize your addiction to prescription pills and do something about it TODAY! You will need medically supervised detox for 8 to 14 days in a hospital or detox unit (if available). Please don’t wait until you lose your life.
To sum up and bring you back to answer the question that entitles this post. The high is what you’re seeking. If you’re being honest with yourself, you KNOW I’m right. Your pain is getting worse on these pills, isn’t it. You’re asking for increased dosages and additional pills. You are searching hard to keep that high going. I’m here to tell you that you’ll be chasing that high until the day you overdose, because it will never come back. The best you can hope for is to be able to avoid becoming drug sick, aka: withdrawal. You’ll be doing this until you are buried. Your addiction is unintentional; however, it’s still a lethal addiction. I survived, but most do not. I attribute my survival and health to the Lord Jesus Christ and His love and purpose for me in this world.
You CAN CAN CAN learn to cope with chronic pain. If I can, you can! There are organic, natural ways to cope with chronic pain; and, of course, the best pain relief is Jesus Christ and His supernatural ways and healing. You need salvation first.
In Christ’s Love, National Addiction News
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